So I have a choice

- go for lunch/drinking with my dad who I've not talked to in literally months
- play truck simulator

I really really want to do the second one but I'm probably going to have to do the first

It sucks cause if I don't go my brother gets shit from my dad but I just don't want to fucking see him tbh

Like I don't feel great at the best of times and having to talk to my dad just compounds things

I just don't want to say anything either because lol uhh I rely on my dad to pay my mobile phone bill right now,

I mean I guess the meagre increase in my jobseekers allowance after new year will pay for that and I can be more frank with him idk

I especially don't want to say anything right before Christmas lol